#is this what enlightenment feels like

[kidicaruslover911]

sevika making me question if i'm truly even bisexual or just a hardcore glass closeted lesbian that just had her spiritual gay awakening and opened her third eye upon her blantant display of fruitiness once again.

haven't felt this way since mizu's first introduction really.

am i crazy? what is happening to me?

is this what they call gay enlightenment?

[luvo27]

level of insanity a wip can make me feel: i understand why a person would want to be a dog

[lorillee]

im really normal about them <- lie

[lovelyrotter]

can ppl in this fandom like... stop... implying that transmasculinity in hcs or (especially) canon is shallow or misogynistic or even transmisogynistic on princible, like literally just by being prescent in someones mind or in the text. like that doesnt fuckin feel good. thats kind of really nasty to imply. if its not okay to say about other trans experiences, maybe dont say it about this one either. why is there a weird little exception here. yall KNOW how much that sucks to hear all day every day. what the fuck

[wassupmygays]

okay as a fellow lesbian i need ur opinion on lesbian cherry with HEAVY comphet….

ohhhhh okay. yes. i've never really thought about it to be totally honest but i like it i see the vision

cherry dating bob because hes got this huge crush on her, and everyone says theyd be perfect together. u know how parents put their little kids together and gush about how cute they are together?? thats cherry and bob

and she likes bob!! hes sweet and nice to her. so they should date right

and like. her besties all have their boyfriends, and maybe she doesnt really get how lovey-dovey they are with their boys, but not everyone can be bev and brill. and marcia and trip aren't a perfect couple so her and bob are fine, right?

i think cherry just thinks this is what love feels like and maybe everyone else was exaggerating a bit. but shes happy enough with bob, and she really cares about him and trying to help im through his family stuff

listen man i didnt know dating girls was even an option until 8th grade and cherry doesn't have queer friends to help her. i dont think she realizes things until like. college

after bob dies, she stops dating. it just doesnt feel right, or appeal to her really, and everyone lets her be because her boyfriend just got murdered

eventually her parents do the "cherry sweetie you've got to find a nice boy and settle down" and shes like damn. i guess i do

idk where she goes to college. but if its somewhere a bit more progressive.... cherry eventually learns what gay people are outside of the scary stories from home.

[lelianaslefthand]

me seeing any interview with da devs, past or present

[swallowtail-ageha]

*video by a self proclaimed historian archeology with mary on a cross dramatic beat in the background fake crying hand on mouth in instagram reels* here is a funeral epigraphy of this young roman lady who got murdered by her husband! People especially men were such beasts right then and haven't changed much! *shows epigraphy where parents of murdered girl both father and mother denounce their daughter's murder as something abominable and either way Very Much Not Uncaring of the girls fate*

[lumenflowered]

Crazy? I was crazy once. They locked me in a room. A rubber room. A rubber room with rats. And rats make me crazy. Crazy? I was crazy once

My... condolences...?

[lilmaemae]

tagged by the lovely lovely @thestrangeillusion !! you're so cool actually, and i'm glad to have learnt more about you on your own edition, ehe <33 im a few days late but here are my answers !!

do you tidy your bed

no, because i'm going to lie in it in a few hours lmao. it feels more cosy in its nest state

what's your favourite number

15! or 5? as my birthday dates, they're precious to me

what is your job

i used to work as a veterinary nurse (for the past 2 years) but i just quit!

if you could go back to school would you

... i'm going back to school in september (college lmao), for vet school, so uh,,, yes? 😂

can you parallel park

not at the moment, but in the near future i hope so!

a job you had that would surprise people

i used to sell cured meat at a branch in the airport. or the time i helped my mom's friend with her candle making workshops?

do you think aliens are real

i think that there are many things different from human-likeness that can exist. whether or not they have "intelligence" in the definition relative to humans, however.,,, i think chances are slim. i think they'd be smart in their own ways.

can you drive a manual car

close! i'm learning how to drive right now, have been learning the the month or two!

what's your guilty pleasure

reading ao3 on my light tabs. i don't use incognito because it keeps logging me out of shit, and it's way easier to keep track of the fics im reading.

tattoos

none atm, but i do wish to get either an animal/astronomy related one eventually !

favourite colour

greeeeeen and pink!

favourite type of music

i like pop/r&b? music that sounds melancholic. like day6, d.o (kyung soo), jeff satur

do you like puzzles

i've never had the space for physical ones but brain games are pretty intriguing!

any phobias

hate the fucking cockroaches 👎👎👎👎👎 genuinely, the occurance of those shits randomly in my bathroom gives me so much anxiety that i stopped washing my hair in the specific toilet

favourite childhood sport

,,, i've never exaclty done sports ngl, but i do have a brown belt in taekwondo?

do you talk to yourself

yes. it's the ✨anxiety

though on good days it's a silly narrator in my head that makes life a little more fun!

what movie(s) do you adore

ngl i'm not a huge movie girl but tangled and more recently nimona!! tangled's soundtrack is just, amazing, i adore mandy moore'a voice so much. and nimona is such a treat, especially with all the shape shifting and the gay dads.

coffee or tea?

tea! matcha lattes are so good. and green tea, hojicha, chrysanthemum tea, fruit teas, bruhh the list could go oN. for coffee, i only like mochas that are so sweet they'd make a religious coffee drinker puke. not to mention they either give me headaches or cause me to vibrate so intensely that i might as well be the flash trying to phase through solid objects.

first thing you wanted to be growing up?

a zookeeper! i always knew i wanted to do something animal related, and im glad i'll be able to learn more soon.

tagging @emberfaye @mousydentist @venagrey @jez-bez @chaeul @fairlylokai @the-cookie-of-doom @awiderangeofgreen @ella-norah and anyone who wants to do this challenge!!!

[torahtot]

also every time i know someone is a christian im so deadly curious abt what they think of it all like when i meet someone who's a practicing jew idk what they believe & it doesn't really matter they might not believe in god at all or believe any story in the torah. but when u meet someone who's a real christiany christian but also a normal person it's like. do u actually think jesus is god do u think he died for ur sins do u think he loves u do u think he's real do u think i have to convert or ill go to hell tell me tell me tell me i become like pinkie pie in my head

[spocks-kaathyra]

"ur repressed" okay well have u even considered that emotions r purposeless and only serve to cause harm to those around u and I have achieved a unique transcendent state beyond them. have u considered that

[arachnerd-8-legs]

im getting real sick of 'intelligence'

who decided reading books and writing counted as intelligence? who decided that getting high scores on a strict, unfeeling system meant you were better than everybody? who decided that people should be turned into numbers, tie their worth in society into numbers, to compare people on a scale that ultimately does not matter, so that the people who didn't dump everything to perform for it are berated and the people who did end up with nothing?

who decided not reading or writing was a lack of intelligence? who decided that living differently to them was a sign of lower 'societal worth' than those who conformed?

[clowndensation]

formula for whether an iwtv ship interests me or not: is louis there 🥺🥺🥺

[randomfoggytiger]

One of these days I would love to read your meta on the last scene in Je Souhaite.

No pressure 😊

Will add that to the list!

I'm on a mini break (and there's another meta project brewing on the back burner); but will get to this as soon as I can because it sounds fun. :DDDD

[simcardiac-arrested]

It is so funny how easily NS accepts an idea of not 'being a person' (and it is not like Waves treated him as one) meanwhile Wayback has achieved enlightenment and so WB knows it doesn't matter.

it is true that while wayback wasn’t exactly treated the nicest either, he still had a lot of friends among his creators! they liked spending time with him, talking and just having fun. you tend to feel less like a Tool when there’s people out there who treat you human! plus wayback’s just kind of…built himself from the ground up, i guess? he knows his worth and he’s (mostly) learned not to take shit from people. he’s got a creative hobby that he himself chose. he personally knows he is a person, and to him his opinion is the only one that matters in that regard.

with sep it’s different. like you said, it’s not like waves ever treated them as one. but it’s also not like they ever found any friends in their creators. you might have noticed this but sep’s not…Exactly the most friendly. or social. it was rare for their citizens to speak to them outside the topic of their purpose/work/etc. and unlike wayback, they weren’t Allowed to have hobbies. especially not creative. there wasn’t any way for them to express themself anymore, any way for them to show how they personally see the world. that generally tends to make you feel Less of a person, when you’re not allowed to show your individuality. so yeah, to sep, “iterators aren’t real people” sounds pretty damn plausible, even if he’d rather it wasn’t

[leapinarmadillo]

my review of Moonwalk: hot mess. ★★★.